November 7th, 2009

Why?

It hurts.

Thinking just a while ago that he was there beside you, with his arms around you, kissing your hair. And then, just a few hours after that, he was in the airport waiting for his girlfriend.

Torture beyond all torture.

Why did I love him this much?

It hurts so bad it consumes all of my being... all of me.

Just why did I let this happen?

And why him?

Why can't I let him go?

I wish I could just forget everything that has happened just like that. I wish I got amnesia of that part of my life. I wish I could erase that chapter of my life.

I'm just so pathetic.

Am I that bad?

I love him so much. I do. I love him.

Why doesn't he want me? What's wrong with me?

It hurts like crazy.

Death is better than feeling like this. Like you were used. But I don't want to think that I was used. Coz I love him. It would hurt more, if it's possible to hurt more than what I'm feeling right now.

And I can't talk these things out to anyone.

They always say that things happen for a reason.

I wish I know why this happened.

It's just so painful...

Currently feeling: crushed
Posted by mylife101 at 09:32 AM | 3 comments
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jetaimeirina
Comment posted on November 7th, 2009 at 11:26 AM
also, I wish I had amnesia too and forget I once met a guy so wonderful only to find out he's gonna hurt me too in the end.
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jetaimeirina
Comment posted on November 7th, 2009 at 11:25 AM
oh my that hurts. :( and I can relate to you. *sniff* *hugs*
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comicgeek
Comment posted on November 7th, 2009 at 09:36 AM
Love just happens. There's nothing wrong with you, he simply doesn't love you.

Is he capable of loving? He may say that he loves his girlfriend, but wasn't he kissing the hair of someone else earlier? Can a normal person do that behind the back of the person that they "claim" to love?
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